So obviously I am no good at this blogging stuff. OBVIOUSLY. But after many days of thinking that I need to catch up [many weeks is more like it], I am back on here being thankful. Let me just say that it is much easier being thankful in spirit than in blog. Finding the time to write something down after the kids are in bed every night seems near impossible. I guess that is the case with anything when the only place you want to be is in dreamland like those sweet little babies of yours. Right now I am thinking about all of the other things that I could be doing, that I SHOULD be doing. But I think being thankful should take top priority or maybe I should say unsuccessfully [wow thats a long word]completing my "Thankfully Challenged" challenge to myself should be top priority [haha]. Does someone else want to challenge me? I am not a very good self-challenger at this point. Speaking of points, enough already.. let me get to mine.

One of the hardest things that I am having to learn to do is raise a child whose father is not the same man that I am married to. It is quite the test of character when dealing with certain issues with someone who you have a child with, but know hardly anything about. I am sure that this is only the beginning. There have been major disagreements at times, and moments when I just knew we were never going to be able to get along. But, that is when the selfishness has to be pushed aside and those big brown eyes looking up at me remind me that he is most important. [my son] I would do anything for that little boy, including swallowing my pride and tolerating his dad no matter how much I might dislike him or disagree with him at the time. Since he has been in Carson's life, our relationship has always been civil. Brad being in the picture has helped tremendously I must say, but it ultimately comes down to Carson's father and I knowing that Carson is most important. With all of that being said, I received a phone call from him today saying that he would like to pay the full tuition this month for Carson's preschool, which he starts next week. Of course I was surprised and very appreciative, but after our conversation I had to stop and think about how many children with split parents probably wish they would get along. Carson's father and I have nothing set up through the court, meet every other weekend when he doesn't have to work, and most of all we communicate with eachother. I have a great relationship with him, and for that, I am thankful!!